A pOeTiC TuNe tO mAh FeEliNgs

I’m in this world,
Where my fingers know
More than my mind
My heart, a vivid watcher

My imaginations,
My feelings
My desires
Take the full throttle front seat

It’s this feeling that keeps me,
Little of the sane I am
Or else what else cld have motivated me
Of all people to design a small part
Of winter collection for a show

If it weren’t for this feeling,
I wouldn’t have got an A grade
In the language in writing in

If it weren’t for this feeling,
I wouldn’t have got such great friends
To my credit

If it weren’t for this feeling,
I wouldn’t have danced the right leg
To the right tune
To win the dance prize

If it weren’t for this feeling,
I wouldn’t have done half the things
I’m getting credit for

If it weren’t for this feeling
I wouldn’t be me ....

me against (as usual) myself

i want myself back
i want all dat i had back

im selfish
and i dont like to lose
especially in the game called life

i want to be the person i was
i want the people
who were, in the past, right next to me

i dont get it
how can i not be
if god himself is so selfish

im no angel im no devil
i cant hold back my pain, my tears,
my soul for so long

im breaking down
tearing apart
hating myself

i want myself back
i just want
what i had before

what i loved before
what i enjoyed before
who i cared for before

who i loved before
where i lived before
i became like this

i want my life back
please.god