Well...no ive not gone mad and thrown my phone into the gutter..I've just been so pre-occupied..not just by emptiness, but stuff ...like how I'm going to deal with my horrible performance in the quarterly and yeah how to deal with some friends ,who've started acting very weird ..how to act with some teachers and how not to with others ..how to deal with your past when its staring at your face, when you've been thinking, all this while, it was safe in your forgotten list ..
ahh well ..im no perfect person ..but i did find some answers
well , marks will ALWAYS come and ALWAYS go ..you just cant do anything about it .i just put in my best ..and got marks marginally better than in mid term ..and you know ? because of a friend ....im actually happy with them :) ....
well about the friend acting weird..well i just can't help it ..Im already going through so much pressure to do well in every single thing i give a shot at ..so well ..id just say tough luck to myself and move on
About the teachers part ? ive still not found answers ..all of them are acting so weird ! i dont know what the want ? whether its my blood or marks ..ive still not figured out ! all i know is its not my problem ..i cant change my ways just because they dont like it ..i mean what the hell , im scoring decent ..its not they who can rule my life
The past part ? well ..um its kind of haunting me still ..really dnt know what to do ..im missing some one from my past like crazy ..im crying ..bawling ..writing something in the name of poetry..just for that person ..but of couurse i know that person cant cme back .i have to face it and its eight years and running since the war against my to-forget list has been on ..im still at war ,neither defeated nor triumphed
ahh well..life is weird ..and im yet to be ready for it..but im still armed ..
me and my armada
waiting in silence
will the strength of my past
resurrect ?
To help me move on ?
to acheive something
real ?
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ah... growin up... wat an experience... [:)] u know wat i did wen teachers tried to insult me in front of the whole class? i built a mental image of me marrying the teacher's daughter and givin my mother in law a hard time... [:)] and ya, frnds wil act different now... its the unwritten rule... [:)]
omg ..dat tip will totally help me !! lol ..and the unwritten rule ..well yeah ive got to know it now ..will help in da future i guess .
thanks for droppin by crazybugga
HUG!! I may not be the best person at advicing you abt life.. but i do believe that things of the past shouldnt be fought against coz its a no-win situation.. U just need to sink things in and learn to let them hold a special place in your heart.. it takes a lot to do that.. don worry we will be here to help u in little ways we can :)
awwwww,thanks so much :)
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